MercenaryM14

Well I have been working recently, it feels good to get off my lazy bum and do something. I have almost saved enough money to purchase my first car, i am very excited. wish me luck!

As many of you know i don't write journals very much and im sure even fewer people read them but today i have been given the order to release a shit storm of feelings upon you. A few minutes ago I was told that a friend of mine who had been serving in Afghanistan has passed away, shortly before she was due to return from active duty. This friend of mine was the first person to make me be myself and come out of my shell when i was in high school. I had not seen or heard from her since high school until a few months ago when i found out where she was. I started a Written correspondence with her and had reformed a friendship. I have a letter h

So yea life is getting crazy and i find myself turning into someone who isnt myself. I dont know, Interviews, school, paperwork, redtape, relationships, and everything. I feel under alot od pressure to succeed and I am tired of hearing it. That or being told not to do things, As if i somehow have lost all abilities to think. So I am trying to go back to my roots and find out who I am. How did i go from growing up and loving kiss and Micheal Jackson, to being into stuff like aqua and cisco in middle school, To loveing things now such as In flames, Arch enemy, DDR music, Mc Frontalot. I mean, how did i take such large leaps. It baffles me.